Little by little truth gets murkier as the hideous designs of human life cloud layers of opacity to it. In my quest to understand the truth, I turn to God, the Almighty but the problem is that I can't see him. What is believing without seeing ? Books and religious texts only talk, building the anticipation but I don't know if I would be alive to the situation when God presents himself. Of course in a deranged state of mind I kept thinking what is so religious about a disappearing God ? Even though I was searching for truth, the first suspect leaves me disappointed.
Then there is love. Of all kinds of love, one that is the most giving is mother's love. Love of any other kind is creaky, frail and above all human. There is no truth like true love. But I was told one can't define a term using the same term in the definition. How do I define truth ? I can't define it, since love may not be the complete truth. It can be hideous & loving at the same time, it can be giving and taking at the same time and it isn't quite true for an eternity.
Scratching my head for the third time I now think there isn't anything that goes by the name truth, barring a few exceptions nothing is absolutely true. The world is made of opinions and judgements and perspectives all intertwined in one another. One man's meat is another man's poison. Of course I am not talking about facts like "Sun rises in the east", which doesn't bother me even if it rises in the west. For things that matter, nothing comes close to being termed as an absolute truth.
Now the question is why was I looking for truth. I am free to think so at any point of time in my life but what propelled my brains cells to think about truth on this occasion was the momentariness of our words. We speak without realizing how difficult it would be live those words ! Tall claims are razed to the ground because what was perceivably true wasn't true after all and hence suspectible to retraction and inaction. Yeah if I increase the horizon of my every discussion in life to 10 years, all that we say in our day to day lives wouldn't quite emerge triumphantly as truth. Interestingly, this figure of 10 years is dynamic and unique to me and people surrounding me. So everything that our politicians say and believe publicly isn't true, all that your friends say they believe in isn't true and all that I tell others that I believe in isn't also true. It's not because we are ignoble and ignorant creatures, the truth is that we don't know, we only believe, hence we know that we know but don't really know. It isn't a piece of my scrambled brain and it certainly isn't untrue.
